i was alone at the begining, and learned to be alone in the end
and the ones that believe in innocence...
she protects me from the violating outside
but i know she'll go away . when did i learn to abandon?
...when i started loosing her.
and my dorsal spine, tears her apart
my dorsal spine, made of knifes, made of claws
there are no roses, the roses when she laughs
while i'm drowning inside,before i learned to breathe
because she's mine ,
'cause i'm her owner, i'm her child
she covers my mouth, she covers my mind
she says now you're with me
you won't exist, that's protection
i can smell her fears, and her heart beats me out
if i just could stop the beating, with my bear back
and a long stare at her eyes
so she'll see there's no reflection
she keeps screaming at my unborn insanity
saying my fetal stress is killing her
and the wings started to grow yesterday
painfully opening their way through her
riping apart her flesh
my wicked insect wings
i can feel her screaming
and my wings harm her soul
while i'm feeding and i can't stop to grow
and they open their way my beautiful-betrayal wings
and i'm the only thing that matters, (the scissors in her stare)
of the beings that make the meat
i'm her life and i'm her death, (and the guilt)
i will blame my wings, stench of panic and sex
made for destruction ,naked pain in my bones
and life in her chest
i mean everything to her
but the roses are outside, too far away to reach.


written and translated from spanish
by adri villalba